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Dentist... Time for a change

I thought I was taking care of my dental needs. The actual reality, when I know I am getting an abscess, I would call it in and a script would be waiting for me. I could not sleep the other night because I was in intense pain (again). I decided to try the dentist a few doors down from our suite. I ended up having an emergency extraction, I have 3-4 abscess, I need a few root canals (because the ones that I had failed), and I have numerous decaying teeth. I am recovering slowly from the extraction. I have another appointment scheduled to repair the root canal and to fill two of the teeth next to the tooth getting the root canal. This will be a very long process and a lot of money.   

Good riddance I say!

Situations and feelings play an important role in our decisions. I thought I wanted someone to be part of my life so badly, because I thought I was missing something really important in my life and I thought it would make me feel better having this person in my life.  I was wrong. It gave me (as well as my siblings) stress, anger, and grief. There was no warmth, no love, no connection. All I saw and got to know from this person is coldness and a heart of stone.  There is no love lost and my siblings and I are better off.  Goodbye and  good riddance !

A Hallway with Memories of Loneliness

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  Seeing this picture (Above - Photo credit: Facebook SVSF Group, Lawrence Adams) even after 40 years walking down these hallways, still made me cry and have an empty feeling today. I may have mentioned this in an earlier post (here at my online journal), but today I wanted to share my feelings with this picture. Going back 40 years………. Use empathy while reading this (see yourself as a child and how you would feel in this situation). I am not sure where Donna and I were coming home from… school or our grandma’s house, but as soon as we came home, our mom told us to pack all of our belongings.  We had to pack everything in large black plastic garbage bags.  This was confusing to us, but we did what we were told. Once we packed everything in plastic bags, we had to bring them with us…. Along with Tony, Tina, mom and our step-father, we all loaded in the truck and drove away.  It felt like a long drive when you are driving in back of a large truck and when...

Words to Live By for a Relationship

I am sharing a beautiful post from a blog that I found (the author wrote that the public could share this) I believe everything that he wrote and most of what he said is already what my husband and I try to live by.  -------------- This Guy Got Divorced And Said This About His Ex-Wife... Gerald Rogers got divorced after 16 years of marriage. Recently he wrote a eye-opening public confession on his blog... after I saw it, I'm totally with him. He writes: ''MARRIAGE ADVICE I WISH I WOULD HAVE HAD: Obviously, I'm not a relationship expert. But there's something about my divorce being finalized this week that gives me perspective of things I wish I would have done different... After losing a woman that I loved, and a marriage of almost 16 years, here's the advice I wish I would have had... 1) Never stop courting. Never stop dating. NEVER EVER take that woman for granted. When you asked her to marry you, you promised to be that man that would OWN HER HEART and to fie...

Make that Change

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We often start from the outside to try to make change on the inside.  Life isn't life without making changes in your.... well, your life. You may be thinking of making a personal change, your job, school, weight loss (or gain), or emotional changes you are seeking, however, change must start from the inside, before it can be seen on the outside. The first step is to make a decision where you know exactly why you want to make that change.  Any change that you are going to make are useless without a reason to achieving those changes . Without that reason to keep you determined, you'll swerve off the road again and again.  Since I am a fitness professional, we will concentrate on your fitness goals.  Before starting any fitness goal, please tell yourself you are making the changes to your body because YOU want to for the health benefits and NOT because of a wedding or school reunion you will be attending in a few months.  If you are doing the latter, your ...

2014 Facebook Friends Sketches

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My first photo I used from one of my Facebook Friends and the craziness started.. My focus was her hair. My "second victim". I had a lot of fun with this sketch. My focus was her eyes. I was at a slump with my artwork. It made me very depressed and my creativity was nowhere left in me or it was buried so deep, I needed it to show itself to me before my darkness took over. I decided to react in a positive way instead of reacting with no hope or an excuse to be sad.  I decided that I wanted to try something new.  I know how to paint and have done many projects on the canvas, in extremely large formats.  Acrylic painting was my chosen paints for all of my art projects. I also know how to use clay and make sculptures too. I would LOVE to get back into sculpting because I only know the creative side of sculpturing and not the "oven" side (If that is how one describes it??) I decided that I did not know anything about sketching with colored...

Who we are will never be

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Life is so strange. As each day goes by, the things that you think you remember, a touch... a smile... laughter... words.... all slowly disappear.  You want to hold on to it, but it soon vanishes. A memory is now something that has little meaning because the hours, minutes, and seconds make new memories without the thoughts of yesterday. You want to hold on to whatever you miss or loved. You want to hold on to the love and caring that you had for that memory. You feel  guilty that you did not remember something today or you feel  the "oh" moment when you do remember something and it isn't as painful today as it was yesterday. It is very sad that we all will go through this as we grow older. No matter what our ages are now, no matter who we are now... We will go through this when we want to remember... when we want to hold on.  This is life and no matter how many pictures we hold dear to our hearts, no matter how many videos we watch daily of our loved ones, or n...