Debbie Lim's Online Journal

This Photo: This is Julio (DOD: Feb 20, 2007) and Jasmine (DOD: Feb 25, 2010) at a happier time in their lives. October 2006. I cannot get motivated today. Thank God I rescheduled my appointment with Ann Arbor, because my mood is not that well today. It was so hard to put my little Jasmine down yesterday. For those of you that are dog lovers, you will understand my pain. At 2:20pm, Nino and I had to let Jasmine go. She was ready. We were not ready to let her go. We said our goodbyes to her and thought back to the wonderful years she gave us. She has been bedridden since this Saturday, February 20th - the 3-year anniversary date of Julio's death. She could hardly walk and gave up on eating. She was drinking water and chicken broth until yesterday when she did not accept anything. We carried her to each room that we were in, because she loved to be with us. Wednesday evening, after my classes I did my normal work - working on the clinic bookkeeping..... I kept Jasmine with Nino...

I took this picture from my Blackberry... We were driving back from the Vets today... I was happy that she was coming home... we thought that she was going to be put down and boyyyy I was happy to still have her! We had our first severe snow storm of the season today. Thank God for a Wrangler! Feb 22, 2010 Nino and I took Jasmine to the VET today and we are trying one more thing. He gave her an antibiotics shot. He said she should start feeling better by this evening and maybe start eating some food. It is 10:20 pm and she is still the same. She cannot stand... Wait.... just now....she did go outside for a few minutes! I gave her some water just now! She was drinking it! I tried to give her some treats or food, but she will not eat. Please Lord, either make Jasmine well or let her go peacefully without any pain. She is 13.5 years old and she knows that she is loved and she has been a blessing in our lives.

Jasmine You know the old saying... Quiet before the storm? I believe that is happening right now with my sweet little Jasmine. Jasmine has a severe collapsed trachea. This is very common for little Yorkie breeds. For the last few months it has been very bad for her. I even posted a video on YouTube to see what other Yorkie Lovers are doing about this and if anything has helped their dogs. Our VET tells us that Jasmine is not suffering and that it is basically like a "cough". Well, her "cough" is getting worse and almost every minute she is hacking or coughing severely..... that is.....until today. She did not eat today... She is laying around and when she does get up, she just stands there. Her breathing is hard and her chest seems heavy. As I sit here in my home office, I can hear her breathing hard, but she seems very peaceful. She has not "coughed" or "hacked" the entire day. She has been very quiet. Ms. Jazee Jasmine La Shong, born Ju...

I am always thinking about my classes: How to improve my teaching technique. How to satisfy the needs of each student. How to keep the students coming back for more. I strive to succeed in every class that I teach. When I am up there in front of them, I look forward to their smiles, determination, and goals. When I teach, I smile all the time (as they well know) because of many reasons….. It makes me happy to see everyone getting into the class! I laugh at myself when I KNOW I mess up and hopefully no one will know because I have that ugly smile plastered on my face! I have to admit, I also like to watch the students… I like to see the expressions on some of their faces…. The way some of them move… I get a warm feeling in me and …yes, it makes me giggle inside! No one knows this (except for my twin), right before every cool down, I pray. I thank God that the class was successful and I was able to teach it. After 29 years of teaching, I still get nervous and at times I am unsure of m...

When I think about how life is... When we were young, we wanted to be older. Now that we are older, we want to be young again. I look and cannot believe how the years flew by. I cannot believe that my son will be middle-age next January and my daughter is turning 20 years old this year. I see things so differently nowadays too. What used to be important to me is not anymore. For example, I am a cleaning fanatic. I still like everything clean, but I don't have to have things "put away or washed" right that minute. I used to move my furniture around at least every other month... or I would buy new furniture once every year. I used to paint the walls of any housethat I lived in every year too. Those days are gone now. I am not sure if it is to "old age" or not, but now I am content with my furniture and my walls look pretty good too. I do plan to buy a new dinning room set, but not one that is the top of the line like I always did before. I just want a simpl...

All I have to say is.............. WHY?

This entry will be pretty long... I was on my laptop last night and decided to write things that probably means nothing to anyone but bothered me with many questions.... So... here it is.... Just my point of view on different subjects: Do we need more DRUGS? Haven’t you noticed all of the commercials in the last couple of years promoting prescription drugs? They say typical things that everyday normal people feel from one time to another…. Then they say, “Ask your Doctor to try this drug…” Then at the end of the commercial it states their Disclaimer… “Risk of heart attack… could be fatal…. Blood clots…. Blah… blah.. blah!” Don’t you ever wonder WHY these pharmaceutical companies do this? I know of two reason… 1. Some of these companies lose their patents or are on their way of losing their patents and need to find another way of how these drugs work for other “diagnosis”. 2. Money. I remember when Zoloft was “the drug to cure depression”. Since the company was losing their patent ...

I can be quiet and keep my thoughts to myself. For only a select few, I am able to share my feelings, but most of the time, I like to keep things to myself. I used to share a lot more of my life with some people, but I have learned that is not safe to do anymore. It is funny how you think , the people that claim to be close to you are the ones that harbor ill feelings toward you... When you take a step back and watch the scenario that is taking place in front of you, you must take action or let them step all over you! ooohhh How things will be changing... I wish to share this with a person that I have been watching for some time, but will not for numerous reasons..... However, this is what I would like to say to her: I refuse to sit back and let someone try to make me feel I am not wanted , especially where I should be! I almost gave in and then realized.... HEY.... not this time!!! Yes, darling, I AM a stronger person now. Yes darling, I can be quiet and you may take it as weakness...

It is just one of those nights... I hardly have them, but when I do, I pray that I get out of them fast! I am so tired today. I cannot focus and my memory has been horrible lately. I feel like I am burning out fast and cannot stop this spiral effect. The classes are going very well. I had to turn down a teaching position at Ballys. The sad thing they did was NOT inform the gym! One of our students came up to me this morning and said she saw the posters posted all around Ballys that I was going to be there today! I called them to inform them that I had called the Director on Thursday and informed her of my decision. I felt horrible that they were excited about it, but it was not feasible for me to conduct classes there! Not only was it a bad business move for me, but the pay was horrible! I only agreed to it because of being highly referred to them by another Instructor. Speaking of that Instructor that referred me, I let her know about my decision and she told me (because she teach...

I was tagged by my niece to fill out "25 things I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT YOU" at Facebook, so I thought I should put it in my blog to check on it later I am beginning to dislike eating food, due to fear of the contaminated food out there. I have severe insomnia... like now! (4:30am) I am still very much in love with my husband.. as though it is the first day we met...20 years later I don't want to grow old with my sisters living so far from me. I want my family and friends to succeed and be happy in their lives. Although it took me so long to graduated from college, I have no desire to further my education. I am a better person since 2006 and especially since 2008! I love teaching fitness. I love seeing the smiles on my students faces when I teach! I love hearing about their success! I wish I could change my son's life and make him happier. I love my little dogs! I truly don't see them as dogs but as my little children. I love watching Nino... the intense look wh...

Did you know that every decade, we tend to gain at least 5 pounds with normal activity! Even if you have exercised most of your life, your average weight gain is at least 3 pounds. Why is this? Because most of us do not increase our activities and most likely we are eating more. Keep in mind, that the federal guidelines for physical activity are the same, calling for equal amounts of exercise for both younger and older adults. Both the Surgeon General and the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention recommend 30 minutes of moderate physical activity for everybody on most days of the week. Remember, getting older does not mean you have to look and feel your age too. With the right food and exercise plan you can turn back the clock of time and enjoy abundant energy and experience the joy of feeling better than you have in years. By including exercise into your life, you will notice the change in your attitude, habits, and even your appearance. I would like to add another important fact...

I decided to stay up this time. Why lie in bed and force myself to (try to) sleep, when all it does is frustrating me. When you really think about aging, isn’t it really sad for most people. I can already tell that I am not going to “age gracefully”. Youth is wasted on the young. When we are young, we cannot wait until we are older. Oh how we wish we were young “once again” when we are older. I guess it boils down that we are never happen with ourselves. Those of us that want straight hair have curly hair…. Short hair people want long hair… Short people want to become taller… Taller people want to become shorter… age 17 or 18 Just when you realize your life is going good or if you came to term with certain issues in your life, that is when something would hit the fan. Life is a wild rollercoaster. Once you think something is going well, something else will always pop up. It is not about negativity. It is about life. You reach the end of one chapte...

I cannot believe how some people are! Yesterday, two of us from Fitness Motivators did a two Zumba Presentations for the Tam-O-Shanter Country Club in West Bloomfield. Let me mention that we did these presentations for free. The morning presentation was fun. Those Ladies were friendly and appeared to have a great time. There was even one participant that was also a "Zumba Instructor". She wanted to see "our teaching skills and how we taught Zumba". Let me elaborate on this "Instructor". As soon as the music started, she decided to take over the entire presentation by jumping around, moving the opposite way then we were teaching, standing in the front row to demonstrate moves that I was NOT even doing! She was SO distracting and bouncing around as if she was on a caffeine fix! I could clearly see on the other Ladies faces were getting stressed because of this "show-off Zumba Instructor". She was literally bumping into the other participants or...

I HAD to post this!! I do not swear, but I had to post it with the swearing, because it would not or could not sound any better without it! LOL I swear, what I posted below is OHHHH SO TRUE! LOL When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking Twenty-five miles to school every morning.... Uphill... barefoot... BOTH ways Yadda, yadda, yadda And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on my kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that... I am over the ripe old age of thirty, I cannot help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it, but you kids today, you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we did not have The Internet. If we wanted t...

Like the world, I too am very upset and shocked with the death of Michael Jackson. He impacted my life through his music. His family is from my generation and like I posted the minute I heard of his death at my Facebook status…. Michael Jackson was the soundtrack of my life. My favorites musicians…. Luther Vandroff, Barry White, Marvin Gaye and now Michael Jackson are gone… such beautiful talent…gone. Thank God we still have Stevie Wonder and Lionel Richie...... I am sitting here watching CNN covering "the stars walking on the Red Carpet for the BET awards night”. This is WHAT I WOULD LIKE to know… Before Michael Jackson (MJ) passing, was MJ invited to the BET Music Awards???????????????????? Was MJ even on the list as a guest? Was his music planned to be at the BET Awards? I THINK NOT! A tribute to MJ is very nice and I hope they concentrate on MJ videos and music, but I am quite sure that we will see a lot of the “stars” singing MJ songs or do the moon-walk…. But I am wondering…...

Wow! It has been a while since I have written in my blog! Dang. what a stressful night on the dang phone! Nino “accidentally” damaged his laptop and THANK GOD I purchased an extra Accidental Damage Insurance for it! The Insurance will expire on July 6! Any hoo…. I called HP and was directed to five OR MORE different people… ALL OUT SOURCED by that dang way………… they had NO clue to what the heck I was talking about! It got to the point where I kept asking to speak to the Management, and the stupid guy just SAT ON THE PHONE! I was on the phone for OVER ONE hour and 29 minutes! While I was on the phone, Nino decided to call the SAME DANG number and he got through with no problem! They also had “my case number and my Insurance Number” (my guy said he could not find it and he “checked ten times”) I hung up from my guy and Nino then WAS ON THE DANG PHONE FOR OVER ONE HOUR! HIS guy “hung up on him” but did call him back 20 minutes later! ONE THING I MUST SAY TO THE CORPORATE WORLD………. STOP out...

It has been one week since I was in Missouri. I miss my twin so much! I wish we lived in the same state. Nino and I looked at a few clinics in Illinois to see if Illinois would be a state for us to move to, plus it is closer to Donna! I instantly had a bad feeling about the doctor that was selling his clinic. He was too nervous and I caught him being dishonest with us. We drove through the small town and thought that it would not suit us. The bottom –line, we live in a very nice area in Michigan. We both were born in Michigan and know all of the cities, areas, where not to go, where to go, and everything in between. It is a shame that Michigan is doing so horrible in this economy! I do believe that the Big Three will pick up and will pull through, but it has to get to the deep bottom before it can get back up…. Like all things. Although I do not believe in our law enforcement in this city, I do love our city. The community (people) has been very good to me. Nino is a well-respec...